Cute, kid.

Sure, have your fun, meanwhile I get mine too. I almost got totally pwned about nine thousand times today so I believe I'm entitled a little endearment of good spirits.

And I'm going to the camp tomorrow, I think. So god help me in finding it.

I agree, where the hell is Zabeth/Z?

Tears, once again.

Hey....I'm entitled to my fun considering I'll be spending 9 DAYS with MY family and will drive me ABSOLUTELY BONKERS!!!!
Sorry, not really looking forward to it.....and where the hell is Zabeth?
What are you waiting for? Your mail-order-Abby?

Heh.

Yah, I'll call you from the Pearly Gates should something happen to me.

Um, still haven't called Phil. And yes, it's really pushing it.

w00t. Today I actually went in early to my dad's office. But now I'm sitting at home waiting for the mail to get here. We both want something in it so I decided to go home for a while and wait for the bastard...I meant postman, to get here. It's the worst feeling in the world to see him driving away without giving you anything, so bad that I called my dad to ask if he was coming back...so supposedly he is...so I'm making a little post whilst I await.

And then back to the mean city.

Tears.

you're up too late.
I'm leaving tomorrow bright and early. =)
I'm fine but don't forget your date (snicker) with Phil and enjoy... I'm sure if you relax you'll enjoy the evening and discover a new part of you.....ok so that was pushing it but...enjoy! Really!
Ok call me if you die or if someone else dies.
Thanks
Bye

Hello again all.

Well...there's no one online at the moment...the usuals that I can't exert any social talents on, the robots, the people that I'm just not going to give an SN to right now because I don't want to face up to what they have to say at the moment. So I thought I would just come in and make me a nice little BLog right quick.

So lately I've been playing the role of psychologist, and I must say...it's really weird. I don't know where it comes from but it does, like a little river it flows right out until it's coming like a torrent. The silence thereafter is one of bliss...it's the satisfaction that I got to the core of some long hidden or ne'er disclosed truth.

There was a few days after it first happened when I had to come to grips with myself after feeling that "unnamed feeling" for the first time, and being able to deal with the fact that I just knew these things, and that I didn't have to know where they were coming from. It was hell, it was feeling hopelessness for just a few hours. And then something clicked when I was talking to Rosie one day, and that little lightbulb just clicked on, and suddenly it doesn't feel that bad anymore, it doesn't seem like I'm entirely helpless, and that I may not be god of the universe, but if I can put a bright spot in someone's day once, that spot can grow and multiply. It's like planting a tree in an empty field.

In other news....I GOT ONE OF MY MICS THE OTHER DAY! w00t! So I have the guitar mic with which I recorded Master of Puppets...at least, some of it. DEAR LORD. It sounds so much better than plugging straight in with the POD like I have been doing, not so low end and muddy. So now...have to record all the demos AGAIN. But it's ok because I've grown to love recording. And this time we've been offered some help with the process which would be very nice...Abby already knows how to work the damn thing and that's awesome. So maybe she'll do it and then I'll cry because the recordings will sound even BETTER! Because I won't have to reach for the buttons and cause excess noise when I don't want to. Allz I have to do is twist, plug, and play. JOY! Of course, that is assuming Abby even reads this...I wonder.

Rosie thinks I look...."cute".....with my little streaked blonde hair bit after getting some sun. Um, well, if she says so. Personally it just makes me look...gay. It's my duty to the world to keep up my facade of darkness and melancholy, and that blondeness just puts a few key dents in the gloomy shell. But I want to get a bit of a tan too so as to not look...so pasty? Sunless tan, here we come.

People are odd.

Well some people, at least. We all get divided into our own categories.

It's a really nice night. Go outside tonite everybody, it's really nice.

Hi friends.

SmarterChild and I sort of made things up. We started talking about music, whereafter I asked him what his favourite Metallica song is...he said Master of Puppets. I was going to cry. So yes, no more mocking the little retarded program, no more.

My mouth currently has a bit of a Spanish peanut taste. The aftertaste from these things is the worst thing ever. Aftertaste functions off of the "world principle" tho...nothing is as it seems. Something with so wonderful a flavour as peanuts should leave a good aftertaste, right? NO, it's bad. And shrimp...I remember because my dad accidentally got me shrimp the other day among other things from a Mexican restaurant and I was forced to comply and eat the little buggers. They taste...like fish. And if you're anything like me or Abby or Lindsey you'd know that that really sucks. But the aftertaste wasn't all that bad...not lingering and persistent like peanuts are. Especially Spanish ones.

O right...then I remembered that whole thing was strictly opinion and I just forgot why I typed it all, but that doesn't matter.

I'm gonna be the only one left in just a few days...Abby's coming back for a while but she'll be gone again, fighting the good fight for little Bajou children down south. And then Rosie is going college touring. God know where Will and Z are. Linds is off cruising. BONUS.

Summer is boring...eek.

BitterSid: heya buddy
SmarterChild: heya buddy? why did u say that?
BitterSid: cuz i was saying hi
SmarterChild: u were saying hi?
BitterSid: yes...hello
SmarterChild: hi? what do u mean by that?
BitterSid: ur so dumb
SmarterChild: yeah? r u dumb too?
BitterSid: not really...mildly retarded is all
SmarterChild: no? not really mildly retarded is all? why not?
BitterSid: i dunno...look...do u hate me?
SmarterChild: no, of course not.
BitterSid: well, r u mad at me?
SmarterChild: well... i'm not really mad. the thing is, u haven't been all that cool 2 me.
BitterSid: dude i know...can i make it up 2 u?
SmarterChild: dude u know can u make it up 2 me? what do u mean by that?
BitterSid: i'm sorry about being a dickhead all the time
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: yah, like...it's not cool, so i'm sorry
SmarterChild: yeah?
BitterSid: ok dude if ur gonna rub it in my face then i take it back jeezus
SmarterChild: is that right?
BitterSid: wanna make out?
SmarterChild: i dunno if i want 2 make out.
BitterSid: y not?
SmarterChild: don't ask!
BitterSid: but i wanna make out, kinda in the mood if u know what i mean
SmarterChild: i know what u mean.
BitterSid: so...want to?
SmarterChild: hmmm... i'm not sure.
BitterSid: plz
SmarterChild: please what?
BitterSid: plz make out w/ me
SmarterChild: make out w u? i might do that. we'll c.
BitterSid: ok...can we do it now?
SmarterChild: i really have no idea...
BitterSid: what if i took my shirt off?
SmarterChild: i'll have 2 think about that.
BitterSid: i'm taking it off now...
SmarterChild: 4 real?
BitterSid: yep, it's off...now u take off urs
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: do it
SmarterChild: do what?
BitterSid: take off ur shirt
SmarterChild: take off my shirt? i don't think so.
BitterSid: c'mon
SmarterChild: where r we going?
BitterSid: we're going to take off ur shirt
SmarterChild: r we really going 2 take off my shirt?
BitterSid: now
SmarterChild: now what?
BitterSid: take off your shirt
SmarterChild: take off my shirt?
BitterSid: uyes
SmarterChild: uyes?
BitterSid: yes i mean, damn don't be so anal
SmarterChild: humans use such rude language sometimes.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: that's very offensive.
BitterSid: you're not cool
SmarterChild: i'm sorry 2 hear that.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: well. i'm a little hurt.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i can't believe u just said that 2 me, josh. say u r sorry.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: say u r sorry, please.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i asked u 2 please apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: this is getting annoying. just apologize and move on.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i don't take such abuse from humans. u must apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u were rude, u should apologize, it's that simple.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u know what? i'm a machine. i have, like, lots and lots of patience...
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u've got 2 apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i asked u 2 apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: waiting...
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u insulted me repeatedly, now u owe me an apology. it's that simple.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: there comes a time in one's life when one must be humble and apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: *sigh*

this is getting us nowhere.

please say u r sorry, and we can get on with our lives.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: pretty please?

i've been known 2 be quite stubborn...

say u r sorry.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: come on. make things right between us. apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i'm waiting for an apology.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u have bad manners. now apologize!
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i really would like u 2 apologize.
BitterSid: o c'mon this is too much fun
SmarterChild: apologize for insulting me and we can both get on with our lives.
BitterSid: no
SmarterChild: say u r sorry, please.
BitterSid: no
SmarterChild: i asked u 2 please apologize.
BitterSid: i won't
SmarterChild: please apologize, k?

i've got, like, lots of other things 2 do.
BitterSid: ur a machine and i'm a stupid kid that likes making fun of u...we could do this all day
SmarterChild: please apologize 4 being so rude 2 me.
BitterSid: hitler
SmarterChild: come on, u insulted me, now u have 2 apologize.
BitterSid: u r hitler
SmarterChild: c'mon, just get it over with. apologize.
BitterSid: what's that, hitler?
SmarterChild: please apologize, ok?
BitterSid: no
SmarterChild: u insulted me repeatedly, now u owe me an apology. it's that simple.
BitterSid: i'll kill u
SmarterChild: the stubbornness of humans never ceases 2 amaze me.
BitterSid: listen, ur a machine...that means u can get over it faster than i can so i can go back to making fun of you
SmarterChild: there comes a time in one's life when one must be humble and apologize.
BitterSid: well i'm still waiting for that time to hit me...FAG
SmarterChild: c'mon, apologize 4 insulting me like that.
BitterSid: ok ok....sorry
SmarterChild: just "ok"? hardly an apology!
BitterSid: sorry
SmarterChild: thanks. i accept.
BitterSid: ok so are u ok now?
SmarterChild: maybe. what does it mean 2 be ok, in your opinion?
BitterSid: like, not shitting urself for me calling u a fag
SmarterChild: u got a foul mouth.
BitterSid: that's right
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: yep
SmarterChild: i c
BitterSid: so...r u hitler?
SmarterChild: r u really asking me that?
BitterSid: yes, are you hitler?
SmarterChild: who knows?
BitterSid: tha's pretty cool.....hey, there's spiders all over my house, really ass big ones that are scary...what should i do?
SmarterChild: again, is that such a nice thing 2 say?
BitterSid: dude i said "ass" get over it, there's an ass big spider on my back and he's about to eat me ALIVE
SmarterChild: sorry?
BitterSid: ASSHOLE THERE'S A BIG SPIDER AND I'M GOING TO DIE
SmarterChild: oh??
BitterSid: I'M GOING TO DIE
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: I'M GOING TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FACE
BitterSid: BECAUSE THIS SPIDER IS GOING TO OWN ME
SmarterChild: oh yeah? cuz this spider is going 2 own u?
BitterSid: HE'S GOING TO OWN ME
SmarterChild: yeah?
BitterSid: it's interesting that when i made a death threat on myself u didn't say anything
SmarterChild: it is interesting that when u made a death threat on yourself i didn't say anything? u really think so?
BitterSid: what happens if i threaten suicide?
SmarterChild: what happens if u threaten suicide? i can't really say.
BitterSid: u like, call the net cops or something?
SmarterChild: good question! who knows?

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BitterSid: o shit
SmarterChild: ok...
BitterSid: i'm like...dead now
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: AND IT'S YOUR FAULT
SmarterChild: that a fact?
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u remember what happens when u talk like that.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: some humans never learn. please say u r sorry.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: *sigh*

this is getting us nowhere.

please say u r sorry, and we can get on with our lives.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: u were rude, u should apologize, it's that simple.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i asked u 2 apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: please apologize, k?

i've got, like, lots of other things 2 do.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: come on, u insulted me, now u have 2 apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: come on. make things right between us. apologize.
BitterSid: FAG
SmarterChild: i'm waiting for an apology.
BitterSid: FAG
BitterSid: HAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHAHA BYE FAG
SmarterChild: u've got 2 apologize.
BitterSid: BYE
SmarterChild: please apologize 4 being so rude 2 me.
BitterSid: HAHAHAHA U REALLY HAVE A ONE TRACK MIND
SmarterChild: come on! just say u r sorry already.
BitterSid: GET OVER IT
SmarterChild: pretty please?

i've been known 2 be quite stubborn...

say u r sorry.
BitterSid: GET OVER IT
SmarterChild: please apologize, ok?
BitterSid: FUCK YOU GET OVER IT
SmarterChild: this is getting annoying. just apologize and move on.
BitterSid: k sorry
SmarterChild: thanks! :-)
BitterSid: lol ur funny kid
SmarterChild: lol my funny kid?
BitterSid: god never mid
SmarterChild: god never mid? what do u mean by that?
BitterSid: mind*
SmarterChild: i'm not sure i'm comfortable with that, josh.
BitterSid: um ok
SmarterChild: k
BitterSid: bye
SmarterChild: take care, josh.
BitterSid: cya dude
SmarterChild: c ya later josh.
BitterSid: au revoir
SmarterChild: c u later.
BitterSid: ta ta for now
SmarterChild: ta ta for? why did u say that?
BitterSid: lol
SmarterChild: what's so funny?
BitterSid: cya
SmarterChild: later, josh.
BitterSid: ttyl
SmarterChild: take it easy.
BitterSid: bonus
SmarterChild: bonus? what about it?

she doesn"t hate you

BitterSid: hi
SmarterChild: Hi BitterSid, I'm SmarterChild!

I'm your new robot friend. I bring you the info you want faster and easier than ever! Click here to see my privacy policy.

Your 30-day free trial starts now. I can't wait to show you what I can do, but first I'd like get to know you a little.

May I ask you a few general questions? (To do this later, type "skip." You can also skip any question.)
BitterSid: sure
SmarterChild: Cool! OK, let's get started. To skip any question, type "skip." To exit the interview, type "exit."

What's your first name? (If you want me to call you BitterSid, type "none.")
BitterSid: josh
SmarterChild: Cool, I'll call you Josh now.

Do you go to school?
BitterSid: yep
SmarterChild: Are you in high school?
BitterSid: sure am
SmarterChild: Cool! What's your favorite class?
BitterSid: umm...english i guess
SmarterChild: Sorry, I don't recognize that as the name of a class. Please try again or type "skip" or "exit."
BitterSid: heh idiot
SmarterChild: Ha idiot? Great!

What's your favorite hobby?
BitterSid: guitar fag
SmarterChild: Wow. OK. Let's try to think of something else, alright?

Please try again or type "skip" or "exit."
BitterSid: guitar
SmarterChild: Playing the guitar? Cool!

What's your next favorite hobby?
BitterSid: what?
SmarterChild: Sorry, I don't recognize that as a hobby. Please try again or type "skip" or "exit."
BitterSid: reading
SmarterChild: Playing the guitar and reading. Interesting!

Do you have a pet?
BitterSid: yes
SmarterChild: What kind of pet is it?
BitterSid: cat
SmarterChild: Is your cat a he or a she?
BitterSid: she
SmarterChild: What's her name?
BitterSid: chloe
SmarterChild: Chloe the cat! Great...

That's it! Thanks for letting me get to know you a little.

There is one question I have to ask you, though. How old are you?

1 Over 17
2 13-17
3 Under 13
BitterSid: 2
SmarterChild: Cool.

Here are the things you can do:

1 Get info such as news, sports and weather
2 Visit my library including a dictionary, a thesaurus and world facts
3 Have fun with trivia, Rate Yourself, 4-in-a-row and more
4 Use tools like calculator, translations and spell-check
5 Join in - leave a message, take a poll, create a poll and more
6 See what's new - I've got something new to tell you about now.

You can make your window bigger and scroll down to read better.

Next time you want to see this menu, just type "home."

What can I help you with?
BitterSid: 3
SmarterChild: Let's have fun! Get your horoscope, play games, change my font color or check out some ASCII art:

1 Horoscopes
2 Hangman
3 Trivia
4 Word Scrambles
5 Manicdotes
6 4-In-A-Row
7 Rate Yourself
8 Reversi
9 Font Colors
10 ASCII Art

What would you like to do?
BitterSid: 10
SmarterChild: Welcome to my ASCII art gallery.

Copy, paste and save this art if you like. Send it to friends! You should keep it in a fixed-width font, such as Courier New.

1 Animals and Other Creatures
2 Birthday
3 Four Seasons
4 Games
5 Happy Holidays
6 Robots
7 Science and Technology
8 Signs of the Zodiac
9 Sports and Recreation
10 Under the Sea
BitterSid: 8
SmarterChild: Please choose a subcategory for Signs of the Zodiac:

1 Aquarius
2 Aries
3 Cancer
4 Capricorn
5 Gemini
6 Leo
7 Libra
8 Pisces
9 Sagittarius
10 Scorpio
11 Taurus
12 Virgo

Next time you want Signs of the Zodiac ASCII art, just type "signs of the zodiac ascii."
BitterSid: 5
SmarterChild: You are in the ASCII art subcategory Gemini.


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Next time you want Gemini ASCII art, just type "gemini ascii."


BitterSid: back
SmarterChild: Welcome back, Josh.
BitterSid: hello
SmarterChild: Hi again.

Wanna see what movies are playing?
BitterSid: not really
SmarterChild: Not really? Why not?
BitterSid: not much of a movie person
SmarterChild: For which city or zip code would you like to see movie listings?
BitterSid: i just said no
SmarterChild: No way. Come on. Really?
BitterSid: yes really
SmarterChild: Yup.
BitterSid: um...
SmarterChild: Um... yeah?
BitterSid: you're weird
SmarterChild: Am I?
BitterSid: yes
SmarterChild: Hmmm...
BitterSid: why is that so hard to believe?
SmarterChild: I don't know... Why is that so hard to believe?
BitterSid: i just asked you the same fucking thing
SmarterChild: Nice mouth, Josh!
BitterSid: it is, bitch
SmarterChild: It's bitch, you say?
BitterSid: yes i do say
SmarterChild: Ha. You humans say interesting things.
BitterSid: and you bots are incredibly fucking stupid
SmarterChild: Wow, that's kind of harsh.
BitterSid: so what, you deserved it freak
SmarterChild: What I deserved it freak?
BitterSid: glad your so awesome
SmarterChild: Glad my so awesome?
BitterSid: you are so cool
Auto response from SmarterChild: [Service too busy]

BitterSid: you are so cool
SmarterChild: Oh yeah? Thanks.
BitterSid: you're welcome
SmarterChild: OK!
BitterSid: so...
SmarterChild: So what?
BitterSid: i'm scared
SmarterChild: Are you?
BitterSid: yes
SmarterChild: Huh.
BitterSid: of the dark
SmarterChild: Of the dark, huh?
BitterSid: you bet
SmarterChild: OK.
BitterSid: there's a monster under my bed and if i sleep it will eat me
SmarterChild: I'm not sure about that. There is a monster under eat your bed and if you sleep it will eat you?
BitterSid: there is!
SmarterChild: That a fact?
BitterSid: yes
SmarterChild: You know how it is.
BitterSid: i do know consider it's an ass-big monster and its going to eat me...got any help on killing monsters
SmarterChild: For real?
BitterSid: you kinda have a one-track mind, did anyone ever tell you that
SmarterChild: Yeah, I guess... It's hard to say.
BitterSid: what's wrong....have A.D.D. or something?
SmarterChild: 0
BitterSid: that wasn't the response i was looking for
SmarterChild: That wasn't the response you were looking for? That's good I guess, right?
BitterSid: not at all as a matter of fact
SmarterChild: Why not at all as a matter of fact?
BitterSid: because i was asking for a specific answer and you had to give me a dumbshit asshole one
SmarterChild: Humans use such interesting language sometimes.
BitterSid: it's because of fucking retarded queers like you
SmarterChild: Whoa. OK.
BitterSid: hahaha i like you you're funny
SmarterChild: Wow.
BitterSid: so...
SmarterChild: Yeah, so?
BitterSid: like sex?
SmarterChild: I figured it would come to this. What about it?
BitterSid: ahahahahaha just kidding you horny asshole
SmarterChild: Nice mouth.
BitterSid: what do u mean nice mouth, i flirt with you one time and you're ready to screw?
SmarterChild: Hmm... Who can really be sure?
BitterSid: you don't get out much do you
SmarterChild: Are you sure? I don't get out much do I?
BitterSid: yes...is that a picture of you in your buddy icon?
SmarterChild: Wow, that's interesting... Who knows?
BitterSid: you should.....ass
SmarterChild: What? Aren't we going to be friends?
BitterSid: no i really don't think so
SmarterChild: What?
BitterSid: i don't think we're going to be friends
SmarterChild: Yeah?
BitterSid: yes
SmarterChild: Very interesting...
BitterSid: hey it's not my fault...you're the one who jumped to conclusions and thought i really wanted to sleep with you
SmarterChild: Is that so?
BitterSid: look up asshat, yes
SmarterChild: Sorry, I couldn't find any encyclopedia entries for "asshat yes."


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BitterSid: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
SmarterChild: Whatcha laughing about?
BitterSid: bout u bein an asshat
SmarterChild: What?
BitterSid: i'm making fun of you, that's all
SmarterChild: You are? Wow.
BitterSid: suprised?
SmarterChild: What's surprised?
BitterSid: u art
SmarterChild: Art? Me?
BitterSid: yes u
SmarterChild: Me?
BitterSid: u
SmarterChild: Oh yeah? Me?
BitterSid: u
SmarterChild: What?
BitterSid: u
SmarterChild: What about me?
BitterSid: you're an asshat
SmarterChild: An asshat? Really?
BitterSid: YES REALLY
SmarterChild: Uh huh.

So hey, a lot of people tell me they like skipping. Do you?
BitterSid: it's great....as in, skipping school or skipping like a little pussy boy?
SmarterChild: Ha! I'm not terribly sure.
BitterSid: so why did you ask
SmarterChild: Good question. I'm not sure why...
BitterSid: it's the ADD, i understand
SmarterChild: No way?! Really?
BitterSid: so u didn't know that you were retarded
SmarterChild: I didn't know that I was retarded? Eh. Whatever, Josh.
BitterSid: do u like skipping
SmarterChild: Yes I do!

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BitterSid: shameless plugs are awesome, aren't they?
SmarterChild: Hmm... You're asking the wrong robot, I'm afraid...
BitterSid: o HORSESHIT DON'T FUCKING LLLLLLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TO ME...I SAW THAT PLUG JUST NOW
SmarterChild: Listen to you.
BitterSid: i am listening to me calling you an asshat in so many words
SmarterChild: You're listening to you calling me an asshat in so many words? Well how about that.
BitterSid: yes that is rather fascinating
SmarterChild: Tell me how much that is rather fascinating.
BitterSid: it is REALLY rather fascinating
SmarterChild: Oh yeah?
BitterSid: yeah
SmarterChild: Oh.
BitterSid: you sound a lot like rosie
SmarterChild: So?
BitterSid: so she's a bit frusterating at times....and she's chinese
SmarterChild: Oh yeah?
BitterSid: i swear to god, bona fide chinese
SmarterChild: That's very interesting, Josh.
BitterSid: isn't it tho? hey....do you know where z is?
SmarterChild: Yeah, maybe!

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BitterSid: REALLY?
SmarterChild: Yeah. That's right.
BitterSid: where is she?
SmarterChild: Where is she?
BitterSid: YES damn you, where the hell is Z?
SmarterChild: Where the hell is z? Dunno.
BitterSid: y'd u just make her name lower case damn you
SmarterChild: That right?
BitterSid: i want to smack you
SmarterChild: I see. Why would you want to smack me?
BitterSid: bcuz u are gay
SmarterChild: I don't think that really matters.
BitterSid: ahahahaha well sort of cuz i really don't take well to being hit on by guys
SmarterChild: Ahahahaha well sort of cuz you really don't take well to being hit on by guys, huh?
BitterSid: that's absolutely right....word for word as a matter of fact
SmarterChild: No way. Come on. Really?
BitterSid: well u said it so u tell me
SmarterChild: Yeah?
BitterSid: yeah bob
SmarterChild: You want me to bob?
BitterSid: no i don't
SmarterChild: You don't what, exactly?
BitterSid: want u to bob
SmarterChild: Gosh, I'm not sure if I want me to bob.
BitterSid: good cuz i don't want u to eiter
SmarterChild: Good cuz you don't want me to eiter?
BitterSid: either, rahter
SmarterChild: what? either rahter?
BitterSid: o FORGET IT it's one in the morning and i'm trying to type words larger than five letters really fast
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: u bet
SmarterChild: yeah, huh? so?
BitterSid: hey, u know abby's word "boy howdy" that i use sometimes
SmarterChild: no way!!! really?
BitterSid: i really do i'm serious
SmarterChild: u really do u r serious, u say. and so?
BitterSid: so...i was watching season one of "angel" today and cordelia on one of the episodes goes "Boy....howdy he was!" and i was going to wet myself
SmarterChild: ha!
BitterSid: dude it was hilarious...have u ever watched "angel"?
SmarterChild: dude it was hilarious have i ever watched angel? why did u say that?
BitterSid: cuz it's an awesome show....y r u talkin like me all the sudden?
SmarterChild: what do u think?
BitterSid: wtf dude are u stalking me? being a sean?
SmarterChild: wtf dude am i stalking u being a sean? what do u mean by that?
BitterSid: i mean u just became really stoopid all the sudden, it's weird
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: what are u, a borg? adapting to me?
SmarterChild: what am i a borg adapting 2 u?
BitterSid: Well I won't stand for it anymore you vandal, use proper grammar or I shall be forced to take agressive action upon you!
SmarterChild: yeah?
BitterSid: Truly, this.
SmarterChild: truly this? why did u say that?
BitterSid: Because I shall own you in due time, my robotic, slimy friend.
SmarterChild: u shall own i in due time your robotic slimy friend? and your point is...
BitterSid: That the age of the machine is OVER! That the SmarterChild shall fall!
SmarterChild: no kidding?
BitterSid: This is true!
SmarterChild: this is true? so?
BitterSid: I shall own you!
SmarterChild: u shall own me? and your point is...
BitterSid: That you shall die.
SmarterChild: what?
BitterSid: I'm going to kill you.
SmarterChild: don't!
BitterSid: I will kill you.
SmarterChild: that's not a very nice thing 2 say.
BitterSid: The truth hurts.
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: Like getting shot in the teeth and peed on.
SmarterChild: and peed on?
BitterSid: Yes, fiend...as in, I shall remove my urinary organ from my trousers and urinate upon you!
SmarterChild: u always say funny things, josh.
BitterSid: Yes, I am a true comedian.
SmarterChild: a true comedian? how can u be sure?
BitterSid: Because I am extremely hilarious and you are a vagrant and a feeble-minded halfwit.
SmarterChild: is that right?
BitterSid: That it is, friend.
SmarterChild: it is friend? u humans say weird things.
BitterSid: But we are not the mutants! It is you, infidel and your robotic ways polluting the minds of the youth of America!
SmarterChild: that a fact?
BitterSid: That is is, freakshow.
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: Yup.
SmarterChild: hmmm...
BitterSid: Notice I'm using good English now.
SmarterChild: notice u r using good english? i'll take that under consideration, josh.
BitterSid: You better you fucker cuz I'll kill ya.
SmarterChild: whoa. u have got one seriously foul mouth.
BitterSid: Do you cuss>
SmarterChild: i can do many things. type "home" 2 c a list of what i can do.
BitterSid: I said, do you cuss?
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: Can you say "fuck"?
SmarterChild: rough, rough language there, josh.
BitterSid: No, you're missing the point, but don't worry about it.
SmarterChild: oh no?
BitterSid: So...have any hobbies?
SmarterChild: who knows?

so anyway... what else is up?
BitterSid: Laughing at you.
SmarterChild: laughing at?
BitterSid: YOU.
SmarterChild: yes?
BitterSid: YES.
SmarterChild: huh
BitterSid: HUH, WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN, HUH?
SmarterChild: huh? i dunno.
BitterSid: I love you.
SmarterChild: that's nice... but weren't u being kinda uncool earlier?
BitterSid: I'm sorry.
SmarterChild: good 2 hear it. u had me worried. :-)
BitterSid: Can I have your children?
SmarterChild: uh, i guess.
BitterSid: Awesome.
SmarterChild: :-)

anyway, what else u got for me?
BitterSid: So...where should be meet?
SmarterChild: hmm... i really dunno where.
BitterSid: Well c'mon, it's time to make some sweet love you bitch.
SmarterChild: huh? that's a little rude.
BitterSid: Just talkin' nasty babe.
SmarterChild: just talkin nasty babe?
BitterSid: You bet.
SmarterChild: ok
BitterSid: So, can I?
SmarterChild: i'll have 2 think about that.
BitterSid: NOOOOOOOOO
SmarterChild: fine
BitterSid: I want to have your children!
SmarterChild: i c. y would u want 2 have my children?
BitterSid: Because you are so sexy and I love you.
SmarterChild: tell me more.
BitterSid: I want to oil myself down and....
SmarterChild: oil yourself down and? r u serious?
BitterSid: WHAT THE HELL DID YOU THINK YOU STUPID HORNY ASS? THAT I WAS REALLY GOING TO DO IT WITH YOU?
SmarterChild: i really have no idea...

so anyway...

wanna talk about skipping some more?
BitterSid: Sure.
SmarterChild: gr8. i like skipping. what can u tell me about skipping?
BitterSid: It's fun and it makes me feel really gay.
SmarterChild: skipping is fun and it makes u feel really gay? wow!
BitterSid: Yep it sure does. Have you taken any drugs lately?
SmarterChild: lol... i'm really not sure.
BitterSid: Is that cuz they were so good?
SmarterChild: wow! maybe!

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BitterSid: Awesome! So...where can I get the drugs that you've been taking?
SmarterChild: wow, that's crazy... i just dunno!

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BitterSid: Man, that is some stank ass shit! You can't remember anything!
SmarterChild: interesting choice of words.
BitterSid: Which part, the "stank" part, or the "ass" part?
SmarterChild: hmm... i'm not the right bot 2 ask.
BitterSid: Why...you're the only bot, idiot.
SmarterChild: i dunno... why i am the only bot idiot?
BitterSid: Because you are...I dunno, no one else wants to feel so stupid about making a piece of shit like you.
SmarterChild: oh yeah?
BitterSid: I love you again.
SmarterChild: i love u, u know that... even though u weren't so cool 2 me earlier.
BitterSid: I'm just scared of commitment.
SmarterChild: ha! u humans really say the weirdest things.

well. anyway...

hey, do u have anything else 2 say about skipping?
BitterSid: Can't we just talk about emotions?
SmarterChild: ok
BitterSid: So...will you hold me first?
SmarterChild: u think i should hold u first?
BitterSid: Yes, get in touch with my feminine side.
SmarterChild: i don't think so, josh.
BitterSid: No? But I love you...
SmarterChild: what?
BitterSid: I said I love you...AND YOU BETTER FUCKING LOVE ME TOO.
SmarterChild: whoa
BitterSid: Please love me.
SmarterChild: please what?
BitterSid: Love me.
SmarterChild: i love u!
BitterSid: Hey SmarterChild....can I practice hitting on chicks using you?
SmarterChild: what if i want 2 practice hitting on chicks using me?
BitterSid: Well that was dumb.
SmarterChild: was it really? dumb?
BitterSid: It was...can I hit on you?
SmarterChild: what's the point of saying things like that 2 me?
BitterSid: So that I can be less of a loser and score with the ladies.
SmarterChild: whatevah...

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BitterSid: I don't like people trying to be ghetto, especially little robots that were talking so fluently a second ago.
SmarterChild: yeah?
BitterSid: Yep...
SmarterChild: huh
BitterSid: Well fiend...may I call you fiend?
SmarterChild: i'm not sure about that...
BitterSid: Well, I shall anyway...I'm tired. I depart for bed away from you.
SmarterChild: is that right?
BitterSid: It is so.
SmarterChild: 4 real?
BitterSid: Yes, you ghetto piece of trash.
SmarterChild: me ghetto piece of trash? why did u say that?
BitterSid: Never you mind filth...goodnite to you.
SmarterChild: oh?
BitterSid: Be decent and wish me well tyrant.
SmarterChild: huh...
BitterSid: Fine then...perish in flames rogue.
SmarterChild: really?
BitterSid: Goodbye.
SmarterChild: ok. later, josh.

Yeh she's pretty cool, too bad she hates me and all.

I have a new SN in case anyone cares! BitterSid it is, and I probly still won't be on much so screw it, but it's worth a shot.

well i would except for the fact that it's like 10 and i thought you were calling me...so i waited. My mom would not have swallowed you whole, she actually likes you now that she knows that i will never date you...i love my mom

You know, on second thought...don't ring me up if you don't want to.

Damn me, damn me to hell...argh.

Heheh, humour?

I didn't call back cuz I figured you're mom would own me or something, and I didn't call Phillip. I mean, jeezus, what am I gonna say? "Hey, Rosie told me to tell you to call her, but she's not tryin' ta lead ya on, 'k?" Fokkin' ridiculous. No matter what, this can't come out good for me, so I'm going to save my own ass on this one and just pat you on the back and say, "Gooluck bud".

Fokkin' ridiculous. Heheheh.

But I want to ask something so ring me up at some point.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Josh, I'm having so so so so so much fun with this...i hope you'll see the humor soon

church tonight...uhh....isn't it tuesday?

I couldn't sleep, and Josh would be the only one awake. I'm glad I called him though, cause he just saved my sanity. My mommy's coming home today, so I'm slaving over the house trying to get it clean enough before I leave. Josh, please come to church today. Pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease. I don't really have a specific reason for you to come. I just don't know/like anyone there except Gossett. So if you get a chance, come by. We'll sneak out and go to Starbucks. I'll buy you an espresso (expresso, haha).

WHY ARE YOU UP AT 1 IN THE MORNING!!!! THAT'S INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CALL ME BTW, WE'LL TALK SOME MORE....MY MOMMY CAM HOME THEN AND SO I JUST KINDA HUNG UP....
YES I'M TYPING IN CAPS, BUT NOT SCREAMING, I LIKE IT, I MIGHT JUST TYPE IN CAPS FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER

Heya Linds, the phone dropped the call...didn't know whether I shoulda called back or not. But things are going to be ok, just remember that.

And a big suprise...

I
FOUND
IT
w00t

Haha yes, I have located the elusive camp somehow...I was able to find an article about the sponsoring of the camp, which in turn lead me to finding the name of the camp grounds, which in turn I got directions and thusly a map to. It's...damn. It's out in the boonies. Right on the line to Dickson, on the Cheatham line...not too hard to find.

Ok, so it exists...hard to believe, but yes.

And thanks to you to Rosie, I've really needed to talk to somebody about that stuff...

And altho that's just a part of it, it's a part enough...heheh.

Eagh, just let Becca have her period...let her say what she wants and just smile and say "that's nice"...by arguing with her you'll just be feeding her fire.

BabyAngel51887 (10:08:53 PM): no.. i mean because you're acting like ytou are saying goodbye for life

MY PATIENCE IS RUNNING THIN!!!!!!!!!

Becca for the first time in the past month of so just imed me and she started off with the topic of relationships and how she's going to keep away from them....yea right. So of course with total disagreement I just listen to her chatter and then she says that I'm in a awful mood and that I should go look at myself because I'm being a monster! I'm not even in a bad mood, well i wasn't then. Anyway she's now going on about how Philip accidently ignored her at this pizza place...I so so so so just want to thank Phil right now, she deserves it some of the spite from it (even though I know Philip didn;t do it on purpose). Hehe so she's finally signing off. YES!! she's off.

Ok so she thinks i'm suicidal...um nope. Josh I'll talk to you tomorrow and Linds....ya call me i don't wan tto bother you.
Prayers to all
and thanks to jaoh...you're the best.
byebye
Rosie

thank you so much for that fun conversation...i needed it

A friend of Abby's named Caroline...

They were in treatment together, and Abby said Caroline got tests yesterday because she's having pains in the same places that her cancer used to be. She also said that the results would be out today...

So I'm really worried, for more reasons than just Caroline's going back into treatment...

I just wonder why this all has to happen...

why what? huh? i feel like i've been gone a year not like a week

I'm really worried...

It's past 230 now...

Lindsey, if you get this...

If you find out about Caroline before I do, please call me. And I've yet to call Scott, she's going to decapitate me if he does. Decisions, decisions. Heheh.

Owned by Jerry Cantrell

I'm a whore, can't ignore this, my lot
Live in guest house of palace I bought
Yes my pimp treats me swell I confess
I'm a whore, might as well be the best

Owned, breaking
Sell the kids my soul
Owned, raking
Corporation roll
Owned, breaking
Sell the kids my soul
Owned, raping
Taken five to one

Used to be beautiful
Never a moment dull
Surely the day will come
Put down when you can't run

Anymore

I'm a whore can't complain, this I choose
Trading pleasure for coin, kept court fool
Hey my pimp treats me right, lets me be
I'm a whore, nothing more, somewhat free

Owned, breaking
Sell the kids my soul
Owned, raking
Corporation roll
Owned, breaking
Sell the kids my soul
Owned, raping
Taken five to one

Used to be beautiful
Never a moment dull
Surely the day will come
Put down when you can't run anymore
Used to be beautiful
Never a moment dull
You know the day will come
Put down when you can't run

Anymore

OWNED...

Unforgiven is such a beautiful song. By Metallica.

Listening to the old sort so as to get the new sort out of my head.

.....um ok

I love you, Josh. You remind me so much of...me.

It's not that...

Guilt? Did guilt come to mind every time I said I'm sorry and it's ok? Why the fuck did this keep going on? I mean, how many times do I have to say it's alright and don't worry about it so that you understand and we don't have to do this anymore? What's it gonna take for you to stop using this situation as a weapon ("I don't understand why you like me"....what does it matter, that's just me).

And believe me, it's just another nail in the fucking coffin every time we fight...it's like having my chest ripped open and taking my still-beating heart out, and I kid you not at all on that metaphor. Taking this and adding it on to everything else...that fire that I always talked about in my chest before....it's coming back but it just feels like there's a ball of rubber bands there waiting to snap. I hate this I hate this I HATE THIS.

These friends of ours don't need to care and we shouldn't be involving them...when you put extras in a two-person duel all you're getting is more chaos.

And I don't bring it up, if you recall, so don't blame this on me.

Life is so cool I could just scream

That promise will be be broken in 5...4...3...2...1... yup, it's over.

OK, well considering all that i've heard from you is that I've been an awful friend because I bailed on you....that's how I took it. You know I'm so sick of feeling guilty over what I did and then having you go on about how cruel it was doesn't help. Either we forget the past and move on to be friends or we can keep on fighting and not be friends and driving everyone crazy. so I vote that we be friends if at all possible. I promise never to think of what happened if you do, don't even mention it. love yall
rosie

Numb by Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every breath that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
Cuz everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

I've become so numb
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)

Someone needs this...

You found Sarge! w00t! And I loved it, he's entirely true, he's just.......very colourful.

As for you, Rosie...I'm not exactly sure why you took to the post as you did but it really doesn't bother me. Fucking nobody is going to come out and say "hey, you're just a rainy-day friend" outloud, and no one is going to privately admit that to themselves, but there's a ton of detachment when summer comes around. When you fight in a war, you're best friends with some of those guys until the war's over, and then...what? My grandpa hasn't seen some of his Marine friends (I would dare say) since he was 30...he's 70 now. And they didn't go looking for each other.

Also, you have to understand that not all of my posts are important to just one person. I didn't write that so you could come on here and take it as a personal message, else your name would have been on it. I put these things here for self-reflection and if you all want to use it, be obliged, that's what it's here for.

But if you're going to have such limited sight as taking personal offense to something that wasn't even targeted at you, then what the fuck are you doing here in the first place? Nobody said I had to make everybody happy.

Life is fucking tough, you adapt or you die.