YOU GUYS ARE INSANE!!!

O dudes, well...whenever you have any time, I'm good for ze guitar...I seem to be a lot less busy than the most of ye, so that's why I asked.

Happy 16th Rosie! Yah I remember, only been there a thousand times for DI, n'est-ce pas? With your "present". I'll probably forget so be expecting a call at some point.

Yes.

actually...you're the second. Someone got to me before you did. But you're first on the blog and that's all the counts!

Oh yea, Josh, do you even know how to get to my house?

Happy birthday, Rosie!!! See, now I'm the first on all the blogs, so there.

whenever's good for you

Alrighty then. When do y'all wanna start?

CAN YOU TEACH ME PIANO FIRST?

oh yea, Josh you owe me guitar lessons...you have for the past year or more!

As are most days here recently.

I'll teach you piano. I want to play guitar. We can swap. I'm dead serious. I do want to learn guitar and I'll pay you by teaching you piano.

And today too, it seems, Linds.

Welp...(as in "well" with a "p") It's all just really gay. It's not hard to notice that we're dropping like flies in front of this year. Think of the wowifical nombre of posts all the BLogs have been getting lately...HMM. I wonder why.

Man, I was reading the archives to all the BLogs the other day...what nostalgia. Good times, friends, good times.

So I'm sitting here and I'm really hot, because I cut the grass a second ago. And with me, I took a portable listening device called a CD PLAYER, and took the wonderful band LINKIN PARK with me. It was great, I haven't listened to Hybrid Theory in a long time. But anyway...I was listening to With You and I decided...I need to learn every instrument possible. I was listening to the turntables thinking, "Damn, it would be awesome to blingity bling on 45s," and all the sudden I was stricken with a fervor of, "Hoo-ah!" So's this should be fun. I really want to play a harmonica, but the piano would be nice, and I've been threatening violin for a long time. So we'll see.

But I have to start scratching soon...more about practice than learning, 'tis. Just to be proficient in every field possible. w00t.

Nonagons and nuptuals, friends.

gotcha.

me too, only today, not yesterday.

A friend of my dad's that used to work in his office. She left and shortly after, her mother died. The last time he saw her was at the funeral.

I was really depressed today.

Who's Laurie?

Augh, I get the cool BLogger in Nashville, I get the gay one here. WHY?

Aww well...whadaya mean I'm not an EMO kid? The long hair, the screamy, "I wanna kill myself because nobody likes me" songs, the generally nihilistic life outlook? I've been working so hard for the EMO kid just to get it all ripped away...SADNESS. Heheheh o well, I guess I can go back to being a little geek now.

I wish they had strawbaby flavoured schtick when I was a kid, I hated the grape...ugh! I think I mentally linked it with being sick and thus, cannot stand it, and I was sick a lot as a kid (if I remember right) so tharr ya go, arr.

This weekend was really weird. I hope it's the caffeine, but I feel really normal for a change. I'm normally feeling really panicky and thinking the world's going to blow up if I don't take control of every aspect of my life 1234897/7, but for some reason...hum. I got out of the car today and I thought, "Wow, I feel different." It's weird because it feels like I'm not going to be so freaked out over stuff anymore but at the same time, I'm afraid to not be panicky and paranoid and stuff, just cuz I've been doing it for so long.

And wondering how it's going to make me think about interactions and stuff. It all started with something my dad said..."I haven't talked to Laurie in a long time, since her mother died..." And that was it, but it reminded me of how I used to think of things last year, and so I asked him the questions I had always wanted to hear, and the first one was, "Do you hurt?" and then he answered, and I asked "All the time?", and he answered. And for the whole ride I tried to sort out his problem and it was so fucking hard...it reminded me of how I used to be, totally hopeless and living every day like it was a nightmare. That still carried on, albeit a shadow of its former self, until today.

I asked myself this weekend if the past was really worth holding on to, and if what I recall as the past was really, truly "the past", or just some pain-painted coverup my head made up. But the answer was: "What does it matter, it's not like it's coming back."

I feel so weird...I guess it only happened because I found out my dad was just like me, trying too hard to impress everybody...it works for a while but people figure it out eventually....else, they subconciously do and look down on you for it, either way. But it's my own father...

Eh, I dunno. I'm really torn about what I'm stumbled upon here and how it's going to affect everyone around me. It's not sadness...I've figured out how to handle that, and grief and loss and all those wonderful malevolents...it's the masked sort of fear that forced courage conjures up, it's conquering a new world even tho I've been there before.

It's confusion. It's knowing that I can be comfortable here and not being able to settle in, and wondering why I still have to beat myself up. There's you an EMO kid trait...the simple fact that I have a BLog bears testament to that.

My sister just said the following stuff and I typed some of it down, and I thought I should share
But then you're not thinking about it, it's just like, "Eh". She was like, "Wow, you type incredibly fast." Ha, Dusty, I have you in a body...block! The world is fucked, we're all gonna die! Josh, you're a loser! (after seeing that I was typing everything she was saying, and wondering why I wasn't talking back to her)

Dimetapp is awesome!!! They make strawberry flavored now, you know. I'm quite jealous.

You're not an Emo kid.

Wow, my head hurts. I've been watching movies.

I was supposed to talk about them last night but then I got sidetracked by being pregnant...he's/she's doing fine, by the way. I drank two Mountain Dew LiveWires this morning...they taste suspiciously like orange freeze-pops. And I like them too. I was an orange fan, but never grape...something to do with a bad experience with Dimetapp.

So, the movies....

Basic was the one I watched last night. Wowwie. That was a really frickin' good movie, you all need to see it. Augh...it really really screwed with my head. When the credits started rolling I was sitting there shaking my head going, "No, no...that's bullshit." YES! That's how good it was. And it has some pretty big names to overshadow the smaller ones, but the smaller ones do take some precedence...not that that will get them anywhere in their acting careers, but still. Samuel L. Jackson and John Travolta, HOO-AH! It was really good, and if you want a movie where, at the end, you're shaking your head going, "No, no...that's bullshit," this is the one.

And today, just a few minute ago actually, I watched The Animatrix. If I'm not mistaken it came on MTV for a while. It's a collection of nine "cartoons" essentially dealing with aspects of The Matrix, and there was a lot of shit said about it, but I don't know why...it was cool on about a thousand levels, two in particular. Firstly, it had incredible storylines, and as a sub-cool, they all dealt with aspects of The Matrix that Reloaded couldn't quite make clear, or other things that weren't explained. They explain programming errors like "ghosts" and "haunted houses" better in one nine-minute short than they did in the whole "anomalies" bit in Reloaded. They also discuss a lot of things that were left to our imaginations after the first two movies...the machine's takeover is explain, that curious little line in the first one, "It was us who scorched the sky," is explained. It actually justifies the actions of the machines and the actions of the humans thereafter, and it's basically a classic tale of neverending eye-for-eye, still prevalent in ideals like "human rights"...nobody is happy with living the middle ground, they always have to be on top.

And the second level of cool that's worth noting...the animation styles. The first episode, The Final Flight of The Osiris is totally 3D, a la Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within. The rest are varying forms of Japanimation, which, if you like animé, you'd be in love with these. They took about a thousand different directors and put them on different projects, so that they could encompass a different form in every episode...it was totally cool getting all those different perspectives on animation...and yes, I am one of those little animé fanboys, surprise! O well...back to what I was saying....granted, the last episode is little more than a great big CGI experiment with a subplot of little relevance to boot, but in general, it's worth checking out. If not for the "Now I get it/ I'm a Matrix geek" bonus, there was some good story telling and pretty cool/gross animation.

And now that I'm done rambling you can ignore this post and pretend like I'm not a total loser with nothing else better to do than BLog about movies and be an EMO kid.

Here's lookin' at you, kids.